It's a brand new day; the sun is shining. For the first time in such a long time, I know I'll be okay.

First of all, I want to share the devotional that I did last night (from Oswald Chambers' My Utmost For His Highest):

LOOK AGAIN AND THINK

"Take no thought for your life." -Matthew 6:25

A warning which needs to be reiterated is that the cares of this world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the lust of other things entering in, will choke all that God puts in. We are never free from the recurring tides of this encroachment. If it does not come on the line of clothes and food, it will come on the line of money or lack of money; of friends steady encroachment all the time, and unless we allow the Spirit of God to raise up the standard against it, these things will come in like a flood.

"Take no thought for your life." "Be careful about one thing only," says our Lord, "your relationship to Me." Common sense shouts loud and says, "That is absurd, I must consider how I am going to live, I must consider what I am going to eat and drink." Jesus says you must not. Beware of allowing the thought that this statement is made by One Who does not understand our particular circumstances. Jesus Christ knows our circumstances better than we do, and He says we must not think about these things so as to make them the one concern of our life. Whenever there is competition, be sure that you put your relationship to God first.

"Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." How much evil has begun to threaten you today? What kind of mean little imps have been looking in and saying--Now what are you going to do next month--this summer? "Be anxious for nothing," Jesus says. Look again and think. Keep your mind on the "much more" of your heavenly Father.

That really spoke to me, especially with all I've gone through the past two years. I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life, and it's okay. I used to stress out about this kind of thing, but lately I feel only a peace that comes from God. I just do what He wills for me, and I am happy because of it.

Today I renewed my lease for the apartment, and then I bought some tools and outdoor equipment. It was exciting, because this semester I finally have the chance to do some of the things that I've enjoyed my whole life, but never really had the time for. I'm building a sculpture in my 3D class, and it can be made from any materials I choose... School is so much fun. :)

In other news, I broke down and also bought some Nike running shorts that I pledged I would not get. I was curious, and my curiosity finally got the better of me. Now I understand why so many girls have these shorts. They're awesome. I will not, however, wear them with leggings and/or Ugg boots. That's just crossing the line.

I am like Peter.

Of all Jesus' disciples, I relate to Peter the most.

I consistently fail in my spiritual aspirations. I'm selfish, proud, and can be incredibly cruel at times. I should be better than I am. I should be a servant. I should aspire to be Christ-like in all that I do. 

Despite my numerous flaws, my Father chooses to love me. There are no words to describe the gratitude and joy I feel at this revelation.